I don't want to write about you
Because if I should,
I will have to open my mind and reminisce
And let filthy scenes fill my head
Of guilty sins    
Which have destroyed the bridge, connecting who I was,
To who I've become
Making it hard to cross once more

I don't want to forget you
But if I could,  
I will start by burning my diaries,
Watch as ***** secrets turn grey
Turn meaningless,
Demolishing what's left of my happiest moments,
Creating suicidal thoughts            
In the nearest future                

I don't want to marry you
But suppose I do
I will have to ignore your wrong doings
Hurt as you slash me with broken promises
Breaking me, reducing me
Hell breaking loose and you finally dominating me

I don't want to remember,
See,
Feel,
Hear,
Crave,
Miss you

You're a gate pass to hell,
Heaven knows,
I don't wanna go there