The guy I love
is a video addict.
He loves to see me naked,
and almost always tell me he loves me when he can.
I believed that he was the one,
that he would be able to drag me out of the darkness.
Instead he caused it.
What the fuck is love?
Masturbating to your hot girlfriend?
Fucking her senseless whilst telling her she is beautiful?
Is it pouring your guts to her and telling her that all you need is her?
The girl I love is stable and shy
Quiet and remorseful.
She is everything I have wished for.
Sadly I will always go back to the guy.
I don't know what we have
or how we even got it.
We both do know that one day
We will be happily divorced
with kids
silently loving each other
because that, in the end
is what we really wanted all along.