it is not by accident
we share the same mind
we are both willing to ask for help deciding
our levels of consciousness
you see the present and i see the past and the future
you guide me and show me how to laugh
our hearts have been inextricably tied
even now, i know what you are thinking,
i miss you more than you know,
i want you next to me,
do you remember when i felt so terrible that night
that i broke, thinking 'i need to apologize to ashton'
but i didn't, i scrolled through my contact list and i called you
because it was for you, it was all for you,
since the day that changed both our lives forever,
but we can never be together
because i cannot give you what you want
and i am undeserving of you,
and i will never make you have to see my father again,
but i am selfish enough to keep coming back to you myself
you said that i was the only one you missed
because we have history,
and like fire, i have blazed and trained myself
since three years ago, my hands have been cleansed and prepared for war,
we needed time to dance alone til God brought us back together,
and laying under the stars, we held hands
as a supernova bloomed, the star's age died
and so did our past, we are ready for each other now,
we are ready for each other now,
there is so much to write about,
we are ready for each other now,
but maybe we cannot be,
too much has transpired and i have seen the core of your being
and our paths have irreparably broken and crossed
we shall always be a part of each other
and maybe that is too much,
but maybe that is exactly what needs to be.