If you didn't leave the tv on at 2 am maybe things would be different.
the window is open just about two thirds and I can feel the brush of his t-shirt on my hip when he's breathing. I fell asleep before he came home and now the cat is humming at his feet. I think I can smell his toothpaste and the way his hair oils when he forgets to shower. He twitches in his sleep sometimes but it's his way of saying that he's happy.