Aug 2014
I love the smell of incense
On the morning of Aug. 18, 2014
So what is this place
This place called earth
I'll work and work and work
Until my body breaks down
I'll probably always be alone
Maybe I like to be alone
Because it is all I have ever known
I am envious of beautiful women
Sometimes I wish I could have been a woman
I feel like I inhabit the wrong body at times
Oh what a joy
To experience the thrill of multiple *******
I imagine myself as a beautiful blonde
Riding my hot powerful black man
But those are just dreams
Wishful thinking
Better to accept the cold hard reality
Oh the emptiness of it all
Shunyata--Free from permanence
Neither permanent nor non-existing, and that is, ultimately, how things are
Lao Tzu says
"At the center of your being
You have the answer;
You know who you are
And you know what you want
I know who I am
I know I want to be a lifelong teacher
Beginning is so difficult
I hope I am able to start soon
Being a human being can be quite difficult
Future operations will use drone and robotic weapons whenever possible
Since human doubt in a rightful purpose in the mission
Is rapidly diminishing
The technocratic authoritarians diminish the sacred nature of life
With each New death system
It's all so terrible
The things people do to each other
Such a primitive race
Such a primitive race man is
And the young college kids are glued to their iPhones
I just wish more people had an appreciation for history
Of the human story
Buddham, saranam, gacchami
Dhammam, saranam, gachami
Sangham, saranam, gachami
I listen to these words as I write this poem
I go to the Buddha for refuge
I go to the Dhamma for refuge
I go to the Sangha for refuge
Please try to grasp the scope
Of what has gone on here on earth
We each write our own story
Please remember Colonel Glen Frazier
One day he suffered a severe cut on his hand
Which went to the bone
It was so cold and he was so emaciated
That the wound did not bleed
Some days later he was walking across the camp with his hands
In his pocket, to keep warm, and quickly found out
That this was against the rules
He was taken before a judge and sentenced to death,
But was saved by a miracle of God.
With a gun to his back and a saber to his throat,
His assassin asked Colonel Frazier if he had anything to say
Before his head was cut off
He was then given, as he recalled,
"A mouth and wisdom"
"You can **** me but not my spirit,"
He told the stunned Japanese soldier,
"And my spirit is going to lodge in your body
And haunt you for the rest of your life."
Buddham, saranam, gacchmmi
Dhammam, saranam, gacchami
Sangham, saranam, gacchami
You cannot **** my spirit
All those mean and nasty comments
He who must not be named
Has said to me
I hate you!
I do not ever want to see you again
My spirit cannot die
But the world is full of hate
And so as Colonel Frazier learned how the hate devoured him
He learned to forgive
I try so hard to forgive
But still so hard for me
Forgive but not forget!
Stone Buddha
Stone Faced Buddha
Impermanence of reality
Buddham, saranam, gacchami,
Dhammam, saranam, gacchami
Sangham, saranam, gachami
And what about the ego maniacs
The ego is a social construction
Anatman or non-self is the reality
The Upanishads sought to free individuals from ego-attachment
By pointing out that the real self
Is the Universal Self rather than the individual self,
The Buddha sought to free individuals from ego-attachment
By pointing out that there is no individual self
To which to become attached
No man is an island
There exists a certain mutual arising
Alan Watts says
We see how things kind of go together in a connected net, rather than as a Chain of billiard *****, banging each other around
The world is like a network of dew drops on a spider's web
And in each dew drop the reflection of that drop can be seen
And so we rely on each other
I live with one who does not live
Thirty years she has done nothing!
The degeneration of the American mind
Is what I have witnessed
Countless hours spent mesmerized
In front of the television
Wake Up!
A wise man would say before giving his lecture
You are all asleep and if you don't wake up
I won't give any lecture
Wake Up!
And still she sleeps
Her life away
Unable to face the challenge
How pathetic
Just to exist
And never to live
Blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
What a waste
Do something!
Don't just sit in front of Fox news
At 4 p.m. again
And talk to the dogs
Well, I've told many a tale by now
And still hope remains
That is all I ever had really
I know something of love
But not really much from human beings
And who is this Jesus anyway?
Well I love him I guess
I hope to feel love one day
And still
The drudgery continues
Work work work
For increasingly worthless American dollars!
I hope to be able to have my own small apartment
And work myself to death
Well, at least there is the incense to enjoy
And the occasional cigar
College graduate
And another 16 months after that
And still
I am going to the market
She has collected spare change
So I can put them through the machine
For a few lousy bucks
Haha!
At least I have a good car
And a good diet
And a gym to work out in
One should be determined in this life
As I see my life unfold I come to understand
That maybe this is the most important quality
Though shall not fear
Sayeth the Lord!
Stop barking dogs
Buddham, saranam, gacchami
Dhammam, saranam, gacchami
Sangham, saranam, gacchami
(Repeat)
Thank you to those
Who have liked my poems
And follow me
If one can call this poetry
I suppose it is like a stream of consciousness
I never did realize
How much I would enjoy this
Cries some
Will I ever leave this home?
Will my dreams ever come true?
I ask that you think of me
Off in internet land
Do you know I once closed
The Captains of Crush #2 gripper
Manufactured by Ironmind
Look it up, if you would like, it is a hard gripper to close
Do you know I used to bend and break the white and green nails?
Made by Ironmind for this purpose
The metal made hot by the pressure placed upon it
I bent it back and forth until it collapsed
I had to stop because it places too much stress on the hands over time
Do you know
Once did about 150 total pullups in one day
Up and up and up
What was I trying to prove anyway
I'm not sure
Sometimes we must test ourselves
Know thyself, and your limits!
One day the hard times may come
The tough and mean times
I will not live with fear in my heart!
On the morning of Aug. 18, 2014
So what is this place
This place called earth
I'll work and work and work
Until my body breaks down
I'll probably always be alone
Maybe I like to be alone
Because it is all I have ever known
I am envious of beautiful women
Sometimes I wish I could have been a woman
I feel like I inhabit the wrong body at times
Oh what a joy
To experience the thrill of multiple *******
I imagine myself as a beautiful blonde
Riding my hot powerful black man
But those are just dreams
Wishful thinking
Better to accept the cold hard reality
Oh the emptiness of it all
Shunyata--Free from permanence
Neither permanent nor non-existing, and that is, ultimately, how things are
Lao Tzu says
"At the center of your being
You have the answer;
You know who you are
And you know what you want
I know who I am
I know I want to be a lifelong teacher
Beginning is so difficult
I hope I am able to start soon
Being a human being can be quite difficult
Future operations will use drone and robotic weapons whenever possible
Since human doubt in a rightful purpose in the mission
Is rapidly diminishing
The technocratic authoritarians diminish the sacred nature of life
With each New death system
It's all so terrible
The things people do to each other
Such a primitive race
Such a primitive race man is
And the young college kids are glued to their iPhones
I just wish more people had an appreciation for history
Of the human story
Buddham, saranam, gacchami
Dhammam, saranam, gachami
Sangham, saranam, gachami
I listen to these words as I write this poem
I go to the Buddha for refuge
I go to the Dhamma for refuge
I go to the Sangha for refuge
Please try to grasp the scope
Of what has gone on here on earth
We each write our own story
Please remember Colonel Glen Frazier
One day he suffered a severe cut on his hand
Which went to the bone
It was so cold and he was so emaciated
That the wound did not bleed
Some days later he was walking across the camp with his hands
In his pocket, to keep warm, and quickly found out
That this was against the rules
He was taken before a judge and sentenced to death,
But was saved by a miracle of God.
With a gun to his back and a saber to his throat,
His assassin asked Colonel Frazier if he had anything to say
Before his head was cut off
He was then given, as he recalled,
"A mouth and wisdom"
"You can **** me but not my spirit,"
He told the stunned Japanese soldier,
"And my spirit is going to lodge in your body
And haunt you for the rest of your life."
Buddham, saranam, gacchmmi
Dhammam, saranam, gacchami
Sangham, saranam, gacchami
You cannot **** my spirit
All those mean and nasty comments
He who must not be named
Has said to me
I hate you!
I do not ever want to see you again
My spirit cannot die
But the world is full of hate
And so as Colonel Frazier learned how the hate devoured him
He learned to forgive
I try so hard to forgive
But still so hard for me
Forgive but not forget!
Stone Buddha
Stone Faced Buddha
Impermanence of reality
Buddham, saranam, gacchami,
Dhammam, saranam, gacchami
Sangham, saranam, gachami
And what about the ego maniacs
The ego is a social construction
Anatman or non-self is the reality
The Upanishads sought to free individuals from ego-attachment
By pointing out that the real self
Is the Universal Self rather than the individual self,
The Buddha sought to free individuals from ego-attachment
By pointing out that there is no individual self
To which to become attached
No man is an island
There exists a certain mutual arising
Alan Watts says
We see how things kind of go together in a connected net, rather than as a Chain of billiard *****, banging each other around
The world is like a network of dew drops on a spider's web
And in each dew drop the reflection of that drop can be seen
And so we rely on each other
I live with one who does not live
Thirty years she has done nothing!
The degeneration of the American mind
Is what I have witnessed
Countless hours spent mesmerized
In front of the television
Wake Up!
A wise man would say before giving his lecture
You are all asleep and if you don't wake up
I won't give any lecture
Wake Up!
And still she sleeps
Her life away
Unable to face the challenge
How pathetic
Just to exist
And never to live
Blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
What a waste
Do something!
Don't just sit in front of Fox news
At 4 p.m. again
And talk to the dogs
Well, I've told many a tale by now
And still hope remains
That is all I ever had really
I know something of love
But not really much from human beings
And who is this Jesus anyway?
Well I love him I guess
I hope to feel love one day
And still
The drudgery continues
Work work work
For increasingly worthless American dollars!
I hope to be able to have my own small apartment
And work myself to death
Well, at least there is the incense to enjoy
And the occasional cigar
College graduate
And another 16 months after that
And still
I am going to the market
She has collected spare change
So I can put them through the machine
For a few lousy bucks
Haha!
At least I have a good car
And a good diet
And a gym to work out in
One should be determined in this life
As I see my life unfold I come to understand
That maybe this is the most important quality
Though shall not fear
Sayeth the Lord!
Stop barking dogs
Buddham, saranam, gacchami
Dhammam, saranam, gacchami
Sangham, saranam, gacchami
(Repeat)
Thank you to those
Who have liked my poems
And follow me
If one can call this poetry
I suppose it is like a stream of consciousness
I never did realize
How much I would enjoy this
Cries some
Will I ever leave this home?
Will my dreams ever come true?
I ask that you think of me
Off in internet land
Do you know I once closed
The Captains of Crush #2 gripper
Manufactured by Ironmind
Look it up, if you would like, it is a hard gripper to close
Do you know I used to bend and break the white and green nails?
Made by Ironmind for this purpose
The metal made hot by the pressure placed upon it
I bent it back and forth until it collapsed
I had to stop because it places too much stress on the hands over time
Do you know
Once did about 150 total pullups in one day
Up and up and up
What was I trying to prove anyway
I'm not sure
Sometimes we must test ourselves
Know thyself, and your limits!
One day the hard times may come
The tough and mean times
I will not live with fear in my heart!
