The miracle, the way that we have found enough light in people to see them as more than a spit of darkness, is my biggest question. Because the heart is tender, and more of a song than anything else, and it is up to us who we allow to echo throughout our hollow bodies, proving again that our anatomy an opera house, and coming home a form of apologizing without even speaking. You only die as many times as you live, you only come back somewhere one time until it starts to become a piece of you. People are the same way.
It was not how her hands trembled pouring orange juice at breakfast, or how I saw his eyes never looking at her the right way, but it was the silence that broke my heart. The quiet, the absence of everything beautiful floating in midair, suspended like lungs that were made to be drowned and never had the taste of saltwater. Silence, more than any word, carries the weight of cities, it is the red exit sign, sitting atop the door near the back of every restraunt that you look for without even meaning to. I want to write about life, and how much it simply is, and how there is so much to it, but I can't tell the difference between it, and the moments that define it. All of these personal infinities that shape us like skin was made from wood and hands made to carve, and I find myself grateful for the small eternities that come to me. All of these ways to take the tender from the heart.