They talk among themselves as I step in my head..
Words exchange bout how much girls they have had..
Louder he speaks as his eyes turn to me..
I smile painfully for my heart begged to leave the room before they say "How much legs you have spread"?

Ones 16 other 14 and I'm 20 sitting on this bed!
My spirit grieves but my past is wors then everything they have said.

Later that day, I'm going home with my friend.

Heard his mom and dad over talking saying "why is he playing with my kid"?

If she only knew the kid she was talking about been a man.

But she's right how..why.. When did we become such good friends? For him to ask me these kinda questions?

Back in my head the grief has set in, as I look around and think that's why cause I don't have any friends...

Man I don't know why I chill with these guys spend a night go ride have fun with these guys and I'm older them!?

He asked me a question and I still haven't answered him...
Quickly I tell him while his dad is taking me home " I haven't had a girlfriend sense I was one if them".
Never split a girl
Never hit a girl
Never thought about being one of them.

He said "oh..haa.. So your a ******?
And I sarcasticly laugh as his dad stopped at my house I told him "love you bro, get ready for school..I'm here to pray or anything see you next summer or when basketball season comes up...thanks for letting me in.

We shook hands
Hugged
And while he's talking saying his good-byes to me.
My heart says " no I'm not if you get it then you get it, till then keep it in your heart and pray for him.