why would you break someone, to cause pain? is there really anything for you to ******* gain? day in, day out all i can feel is your mouth and your touch and your sound and it hurts. it really ******* hurts that after everything all you can do is to rip me out of your  life and pretend that it never happened. you were the only person i've ever loved romantically. other boys paled in comparison, you were all i could see. the boy friend i had while you decided we needed a (2 year) break, he couldn't have made me love him because he couldn't be you. its always been you. and as soon as you were ready again what did i do? i left that boy as soon as i could and came back to you. he knew there was no one for me but you. here i am 3 years later, in my bed writing this **** over a boy who couldn't love me more than he loved himself. where are you now? i've seen you talking to new girls. younger girls, prettier girls, skinnier girls, better girls. but there's still this hope that you're going to message me one day and tell me you miss me and that you need to see me. and here's hoping that if that day comes, i'll be strong enough to tell you no. and to let you know that no matter what you say, this time i won't be pulled back in. and i will never be made to feel worthless again. but, if that day never comes, i'll be here. waiting, probably wanting you. like always. i miss you. but i can't do this to myself anymore.