I don’t want to be touched in ways that make my insides turn to licorice I don’t want you to hold my hand because it binds us to the public and you own me. I don’t want to kiss in movie theaters. I don’t want to have *** in the back of your car. I dont like doing things that feel like a betrayal to myself Every time our hands intertwine or our lips press together In a half hearted attempt to rekindle the butterflies that are long gone Sit at the bottom of my stomach. Dead. When I fake *******, smiles, lies about how happy I am I feel apart of myself tangle up Making me smaller and smaller until im a ball of knots. I don’t want to be anyones *** interest Safety boat Most important person because it limits me to what I can be to myself. I don’t want to be touched in ways that betray myself and make me any less of my own most important person.