Writing has been the only way I could communicate with others you see, when it comes to my emotions my mouth might as well be duct-taped and in fact the only way I can write this now is because I can tell myself you'll never see it
I'm confused.
Circumstances half under my control has resulted in making me the co-creator of my own kryptonite see, what happened was partially my fault and I can't escape the guilt that I made trying to escape it in the first place see sometimes trying your hardest not to lead someone on leads them on anyway and I don't want to do that to you I don't want to do that to anyone
See this poem doesn't even rhyme.
Not a lot of mine do, though, And see listening to Drake tends to make me honest and listening to Nicki Minaj makes me brave and the combination of that with Angel Haze is a cocktail that might just get me drunk enough to lay my head on your shoulder again
I think I'm falling in love with you
But you should know my personality means that I'm doing it kicking and screaming searching my damnedest for an escape route because being vulnerable hurts me every time even the ones that promised they wouldn't and I do it to myself, but I trust you And honestly that scares me more than it should
I'm not afraid of ******* it up if that were all it was you'd find me on your doorstep with my heart in my palms and blood dripping on the concrete but the thought of how happy you would make me of how temporary everything is despite our best efforts the chance that I could lose everything in a single swoop is more terrifying than wandering alone through dark paths more terrifying than a deep voice from the empty space beside my ear more terrifying than a letting down my guard little by little just to get stabbed in the back