i wish i didn't have
a death wish
on my sleeve
where my heart should be
instead
but im afraid my heart
is hollow
or dead

i wish i didn't have scars
that are meant to be
my veins
but im afraid my bruises
are marks of acid rains

i wish my body loved me
where my ribs
are meant to hug
my chest
but im afraid my lungs
don't do breathing when i request

i wish i didn't keep
my brain with
all these thoughts
i wish it would be empty
instead
but im afraid
it's too loud
and often contemplating
dread