Something you need to know suffering builds inner strength in us.
Its like child bearing , it hurts until you become healed then you feel joy.
Like an addiction cigarettes for example you suffer until you are healed.
Then it becomes another notch in your belt of Gods Faithfulness  and love.
So be thankful that Christ is using you in a mighty way an awesome way.
For he has a purpose and an plan for you, one of all of your own.
He loves you that much that he has plan out your whole life before you were born.
Think about that, it proves that he loves you more then you could ever imagine.