Im afraid I'm getting weaker as of late
Or going through a momentary relapse
because I can't stop thinking about how I miss the way
That you squint your eyes when you sing
And the way your body moves when you walk down the hall,
Always a hint of dance in your step making life a party.
I miss the sweat on your forehead when you slept
And the warmth between my stomach,
Your back,
Our hearts,
The meetings our souls had
When we clung to each other like humans feel the need to do.
We are only human,
But I felt something alien in your eyes that day.
I miss your lack of breath because of those super cool cigarettes you smoke making each exhale that much more precious.
I'm thankful our universes collided for the time they did but I wasn't ready for the Big Bang.
I miss the way you laughed at me,
or with me,
It didn't matter as long as you were laughing.
I miss staring at the stars and making out against your car
And telling you the next morning the fun you had that you drank away all remembrance of.
I miss the feeling of falling in love
And listening to music with you,
our late night discussions,
the way you excited my mind and my insatiable drive.
Every day with you was a trip and I miss the ride.
I miss the way you idealized the concept of the non existence of time,
Maybe not even it could have the power to heal me
Because I'll probably be missing you the rest of my life.