I envy those who are social
dancing around from person to person everyone seems to like you
you change your mask quicker then they can change their opinions
never letting anyone see your face
I envy you
and your ability to be loved

you don't understand what its like
to be afraid of a hello
because it might be something more
you cant comprehend the fear of a surprise
because that's how the get close enof to hurt you
and i envy you
your ability to look ford
because no one wants to stab your back
your smile chiseled in ivory
because you have no reason to be sad
and I envy you
or i did
until I became you

a rose
striped petal by petal
as people attempted to earn my love
they fell at my feat
unaware that I was covered with thorns poised to ****
I covered my body with plastic
so I could be fake enof for you
and I juggled masks
like a fool at a party
nothing more then entertainment

and I envy those so aren't social
covered in stone your heart is well protected
eyes closed you don't have to see the truth
mouths shut you can avoid the judgement
and I envy you