you were there for me the first night i got drunk and drove home smelling like cigarettes you were inconsolable gave me ginger ale got on your hands and knees scrubbed ***** out of my mother's new carpet
when i tried to apologize the next morning through tattered lips and clammy pores you just smiled, kissed my eyelids gave me water, let me orbit the drain
on my 17th birthday, you were there when i drank myself into impotence showed you hidden things in dresser drawers we snored our futures into the same pillow you lied to my friends, said i took your virginity and i didn't ask you to
i was there for you the first day of the 9th grade when both your eyes were closed but you were pretty in your matching purple sundress, i kissed your ears as if i could leap into your body live there awhile you said your brother gave them to you he was born drunk and mean
i was there for you when he died early on a cold morning in december we shot bottle rockets into the sky, so glad to be alive welcomed the sun shivering naked in the river drank an 11 dollar bottle of champagne giggled and ****** on the floral tablecloth of your mother's kitchen table
i was there, whispering lyrics in your ear watching white pigeons in my periphery as the grave of your best friend pulled salt out of your eyes you were inconsolable i held onto you as if you would float away i still believe you might i've been holding strong ever since