You know how it hits you? The weight just slams into you and wonder how you stood so tall for so long.
Lately I have felt so ugly. Like repulsively ugly. Like to the point where I cry thinking about it and deciding what to wear is a losing battle every day.
I like to sleep with a couple of books on my bed. They keep me company.
I want to let my friend know how hot this fire is getting inside me. I want to know that when I sleep I sometimes think of him. I want to kiss him and i want to say how I feel like Tiffany does in silver linings playbook.
I am not okay after all. I am heartbreak and loneliness and I will succeed I have to succeed what if I don't succeed
Am I too broken? Lately this glass has been spilled all over the floor and it just keeps pouring and cutting anyone that cares enough to get close.
See I have a problem. I am so scared of being liked of being loved. I joke about the ******* I don't but ******* are safe. They will never truly love me as deeply as I love them they will break my heart all the time and I will cry but I know that we all get what's coming to us.
I want to believe I deserve something good but its so much easier said than done