I was lost out on the atlas
Of love and lust and drinks.
With diamonds on my neck,
A smile on my mouth
And my heart begins to sink.
I don't even know what I'm running from,
I don't know what I'm fighting for.
But I got this feeling in my chest,
Like I never get it, I'll never get more.
It's all rushing to me, when my head begins to swirl,
No matter how many bows or how many curls
I'll never be a little girl.
I wanted someone to protect me from what would come,
But nobody came, and I was so young.
And I've soaked in my sins and my sorrow and grace,
Marked it with tattoos and kisses And unloving space,
Lost out on the atlas,
alone on the sea,
And I can trust no one
But me, just me.
But I keep my laugh and such a gracious hand,
I think things nobody would ever understand,
I'm still happy though, in a cage with my pen full of ink,
Lost out on the atlas
of love, lust and drinks.