No matter what I do
No matter how hard I want to try and reach you
Why is it that I can never get any closer?
Don't you see how much my heart aches
Everytime
You try to suppress the tears
Place a facade in front of everyone
Hoping to whatever gods
That no one ever sees the true you
The you that will never be satisfied
The you which is drowning
In the abyss of your mind

No matter what I say
No matter that fills my gut
Why do you still hide
Why do you deny the hands reaching towards you?
Don't you see how much more you can be?

How much better your world actually is compared to mines?

Maybe you can't
But I do
I'm just sorry I can't offer a hand
It was burnt
Severed years ago in a fire
I'm sorry I can't comfort you
I was born mute
Speechless throughout my childhood
I'm sorry I couldn't ask anyone to be with you
I never had siblings
My parents only left me here
Separated before I knew it
No one able to visit me anymore
I'm sorry I can only watch
From this crisp, white bed -my death bed-
Watch you shed tears
For friends
Who left you one by one
I'm sorry I can never come closer
And merely stay immobilized
Within this sheets

I can only wish
I would be by your side soon
Hoping for the ten percent chance
I will survive the operation an hour from now

I can only wish
I'm the only one
Who can't be saved