I am not a beautiful girl who loathes her being her grace, her pale skin the veins that protrude But I loath existence I loath the mirror reflecting the distortions that may or may not be there
I am an untroubled woman who absolutely hates everything about myself physical or otherwise but it's ignored at all times until it's finally brought up I realize I can not love or communicate or have a relationship that is more than superficial
I sit, writing, but words don't always come I want to describe the utter nothing I feel I want words to flow like water like smoke or smell not stunted like I seem or am