and no matter how hard i try-how many rocks i climb, and bucket of swear i collect and certificates to show that it paid off-
no matter how many races i win-or great grades i receive or how nice i am to them-
no matter how many times im there-and the how are yous and smiles-
no matter how hard i try to just make everyone feel--the opposite of i.
its not enough to ever be important
for to my sister
who does nothing
who sits on her *** but begs for my help
who has no idea how to run through life and always needs me to hold on to the back of her bicycle as she learns to ride for the first time
whom treats them all like **** but can facade better than i
ill always come in second.
always
i mean nothing
i am nothing
no one ******* cares
and now,
i dont even know if i do either.