you carved his name
into your skin
almost like
an uncontrollable sin

but it was reminiscent
of his name across your heart
and how without him
you always fall apart

foolish to believe
your every word
i let it pass
ignoring what they inferred

you still love him
want him with all your might
and when you are lonely
you think of him at night

i'm no where to be found
in that mind of yours
i'm not even in your heart
even after fighting all these wars

i guess i never won
the battle was always too hard
so i surrender now
my feelings you can disregard

it's nothing you haven't done
it should be easy for you
since all you ever did
was rip my soul in two

use me, abuse me
take advantage of my will
to love and protect you
i think i must be ill

countless sleepless nights
turn into bed ridden days
and during that time
i dream of pure rage

the rage that was once
a true love formed
now in the wake of a hurricane
in my heart brews a storm

my tears are the rain
my emotions blow like the wind
my silent cries howl
as i realize you weren't even a friend

maybe time will help
this pain to subside
then the healing can commence
once my love for you has died