I can't breathe.
My chest is tightening.
It burns.
I feel stressed
Panicked
Sick
Helpless.
I'm struggling to find a way to stop.
I need to calm down.
I need to breathe.
I need these thoughts to stop running through my head 100 mph.
I need my brain to go numb for a minute.
I need to relax my chest.
I don't know if I need someone or not.
I keep crying and I can't stop.
The tears come flowing out of me and it feels like acid dripping down my face.
My mouth is salivating.
My head hurts.
I feel like I want to pass out but I can't.
My body won't do it.
My body keeps me trapped here in this state.
I cant feel my face anymore.
I finally start to relax.
My chest and face muscles release me.
I breathe deeply and slowly although it still burns.
My stomach is upset and I start to hurl.
I let the last few tears roll down my face.
My headache is pounding now.
Like my brain is a heart of it's own and it hurts.
My vision becomes foggy.
I finally fall asleep.
It's over for now.
But I know it will happen again.