You crystal ballroom, all windows and walls, sewing light like seed over everything you touch.
Glass eyed stare, hands growing like they're getting away with something.
Everything you love is a trick of the light.
Everything it touches feels just like you.
Hiding heads under street-lamps like sin is some sort of choice we make, like growing is something to be done in silence.
They say that people in glasshouses shouldn't throw pebbles, but how can you expect to let people in if you can't even get out?
My grandmother looks straight though me, thoughts locked in, hands clamped around her bag of dead friends like holding them tight enough could bring them back.
She tells me how full of life I am. I want to tell her how we all carry echoes around in our pockets but I don't think she'd understand.
And I just want to call you. Hand you everything I have like:
'Here's the dirt from under my nails. Call it apology. I hope it finally makes something grow'
'Here's that poem I never finished. Here's to hallelujah. Here's to all your leaving'
'Here's my storm cloud. Here's my salt spray. Here's my window all dusted and bruised. I don't know how else to tell you that I have loved you in all four seasons'.
Everything you love will one day become sandstorm, cliff face, the blunt edge of a knife.
One day it won't be you holding the match.
Everything you love will turn back to dust
Everything you love will turn back to light