I'm not afraid of death.
But I don't want to die
But dying seems relaxing.
And that scares me.

I do want to live.
                                                                                                   i think
slowly slipping from reality.
Too damaged to deal.
Too tired.

I just need one thing.
One.
Glimmer of hope.

Please?

contradiction...
I don't even know what I'm thinking anymore.