i looked at my face in the mirror tonight
my blurred eyes trying to focus
on the thoughts deep inside my mind
i was so lost and so miserable
i ******* loved every second of it

i'm trying not to lose hope
but at the same time
i'm trying to feel something
something real

****
maybe i feel too much at once
is that my problem

maybe i'm too fragile to feel

and as always
now i’m only more lost