And is it self hate
To say I feel
Like the worst partner
That's ever existed?
I promise I'm not
Trying to bash and spew
Just trying to understand
Why I'm not good to you
Just trying to love
To be good and to learn
But I can't seem to grow
No matter how hard I yearn
I should try harder
Work harder
Be better than me
But I doesn't seem
I can be anything else
But selfish and mean
I'm sorry my love
I'm sorry my friend
I'll love you till
Forever again
But I'm not good to you
I'm not good it seems
For anything but
Being selfish and mean
But I want so badly
So desperately to grow
To show you my love
How love should be shown
How do I do it
How can I be what I could
For the love of my life
I want to be what I should