Another look
In the wrong direction
The sun
Winks like a maddened
Parrot, and
I'm alone all over again.

This must
Be it.

The place beyond
Love.

Relationships in void.

Unbinding unions.

A fly
Entering the empty room,
Then into
The hollowed hall.
No one is
There to swat it dead.

Down and away.
Far and to the left.
The outer square where the scared
Are the first to go and the dumb
Just keep on living,
Like stalks of corn
We stand in the wind,
Waving back and forth to nowhere.

I wonder
If I would have made it this far
Without another.
At one point,
My mind went where it wanted
And the only way to control it
Was with the bottle.
A doubly effective effort
To save myself
From myself from my mind.

What if I'd have let them win instead?
What if the baby isn't crying,
But dying?
And all these dinner invites - are we all
So ******* hungry?
When the world ends will all the questions
Be answered, or all the questions asked?

Accepting life as it is
Is putting up fence with no gate.
One sees the horizon, but is too blind
To see its
Finite
Beauty.

She said
She had that.

Had what?

That finite
Beauty.

I laughed, realizing
She thought
Beauty really mattered.
Enough scars and
All the make-up in the world
Won't hide that pain.

Thrown away.
Off to go to stay.
Another pass
Of the trailing raft.
America takes her bow
And exits

The stage.

A
Whisper of worship.
Not another dead pan face.
A kick in the groin
Next to a thirty dollar
Tender ****.

I've made my mistakes.
I know I'll make some more.
My eyes are red and blistered from the
Shining sore above me, piercing every pore.

Can't take it any longer.
The skies gone gray.
Money's all used up.
Love wanders off somewhere
Tending to forget how it became.
Friends have dissipated too,
Like the shallow fog that hangs over this fabled city.
One last scream before the dream
Starts to bend at this river of pity.

Too early this morning. All
mourners need to find another place
To grieve.

Let life pass through
Like wind through a window
Or a hand into water.
I saw you on the road side
With no finger out for a ride.
I asked you your name and
You pointed up into the sky.
Funny how our love started
With a smile and a lie.

I've made some mistakes and
I know that I'll make some more.
Hear it, off in the distance, I can smell
An advancing downpour.

Grab your jacket
Hide the speed
Think
Of another place
We can take ourselves,
Another place to flee

Another night in this place
And I don't think I'll be able to finish
Another thought past the last.
Another night in this place
And I don't know who I'll be.
Another night in this place
And I won't be able to find
The lock for this key.