I am the longing For the long awaited hug At an airport I am the colours of the rainbow From which you can't choose your favourite Indecisive I am a mind which wanders with the clouds The hum of a lyric you can't remember the song I am the silence in the loud Blended behind the scenes I am the good intentions Sewn together with flaws I am a losing battle A one man army A human controversy I am something that can't be seen Feelings that can't be explained I am a person in control Of something that can't be controlled I am the contradiction In that sentence I am the mindless doodle on a paper The habit of a lifetime Too unconscious to quit I am the blanket on my couch The curtains on the window Blocking out the light I am the salt in the tears The unanswerable question I am the product inefficient of life