And I think the easiest way to explain it was that I was drowning Drowning in the waves of my own anxiety, my fear of my disarming disabilities Gasping for air with my face raised to the sky, arms reaching up with hope as soft as a sigh Flailing legs that turn left and right, eyes open wide with death in sight Mind gone limp, my body surrenders, but My lungs accompany my soul in screaming Itβs a mournful cacophony, a silent screech, Something so harsh it leaves a gaping hole, broke a five by five wall into crumbling pieces, Shot a blazing bullet, Until the surface could nolonger be seen.