There is this unimaginable pain within my heart
The guilt and shame that has been slammed down on my shoulders
Has become too much for me to bear
Telling you about it didn’t bring closing
It just reopened the stitches
Now I am left here feeling my sorrows bleed from my skin
But there aren’t enough cuts I could carve into my flesh to drain out the shame that is kept prisoner there
Oh how I dream to be free of this filth that consumes me
As I write this, all I can think of is the way you turned your head to hide the tears from me
My heart cried out, but the sound met only my ears
For I am the only one who can understand this
The place that was supposed to be made safe for me...
Has become my worst enemy
My fear consumes me, my heart retreats to where even I cannot find it
I am left only with my broken will
But there is nowhere I can run; no place I can hide to escape the monster that is after me
The monster is one I know very well
It’s easy to see it…
I just need to look in the mirror
The monster is my reflection
The monster is me