im not generally a happy person i have happy moments but im not that happy
i legitimately get inexplicably sad and its gotten to the point some days where i cant look in the mirror because i hate the reflection
its like dreading every single time your alarm goes off
its like constantly feeling like a failure for everything and then just giving up
its like not studying for an exam that matters to you more than a lot of **** right now
its like realizing you dont know how to survive in life
its like feeling really insignificant
its like always being there for people but never being able to say anything
its like living in a constant world of fear
and it isnt getting buff for someone
its like eating food because you feel like thats all youre good at
its like wanting to cry because your friends are so much better than you
emotionally physically spiritually
its just
its like hell
its like hell every single day that youve become so accustomed to that its turning into reality
its like crying in a hotel room on the floor next to your suitcase and then lying to people telling them you cleaned your face and got mascara in your eye
its that kinda thing