Many people have asked me why I haven't done it
What I'm afraid of..

It's not just that I'm afraid
It's that I can't bear to accept the fact that he's gone.
That I have to fill his shoes
That I'm expected to.

I feel like maybe this is the one thing I can hold over his head.
Ha! You left and look that's what happened- it didn't sound right..

I don't know anymore myself.
But it all comes down to tomorrow.
We'll see what happens