My throat hurts from screaming silently in crowded rooms, and my face aches from smiling far too much. But still nobody hears and still people ask "Why the long face?", even though I made extra sure to laugh at all the right moments. How do I explain that my heart feels like it's trapped in a vice, that my eyes are so very tired from constantly blinking back oceans? I can't. One more smile, that almost makes my cheeks crack, and an "I'm fine" will do instead.