Last night was such an amazing night. I saw a Shakespeare play and the life on stage stirred something in me. Something beautiful that I forget exist sometimes and hits me like deja vu or the vague memory of a half remembered dream.
Later on I went and drank with friends and sang karaoke and laughed and smiled.  I didn't go to sleep till late and I had an amazing time.
Today was solitary mostly and now I am having a cigar and reading at this park off base I adore. I stopped and looked around me at the kids playing and dogs running and the sky was so beautiful while the sun set and I looked up into the vastness and felt so small. I tired looking past the sky into space and to the stars and the moon and I wonder why we worry about such petty things such as bills or a broken heart while the universe is so infinite and chaotic, absolutely beautiful. I feel so small and in that moment I feel so... meaningful.  The fact that I am on this green orb full of music and full of laughter floating in a vast sea of light and wonder makes me stop and makes my heart beat softly like a drum beat playing softly in a sleeping jungle. Like a lonely candle shining in the dark.