There's nothing you can give me that is strong enough to stand The things I cause myself to feel, I'm holding my own hand And if there's any mercy left I don't know where it is I only sense its presence when I barely want to live Between the waves of heaviness my head & heart collide Instead of showing anything I try to run and hide The days are catching up to me, I shiver and I shake I cannot mask the fever that is keeping me awake I've written down so many words I partially explain Reduce the possibility of going half insane The backwardness of this becomes a trigger made of ink I swallow it because I can't remember how to think