I'm sitting at the edge of every minute you thought should've been your last, thinking. Thinking about how different things should be verses what they currently are. What if my fingertips weren't built like the tips of matches? My hands would be more skin than third degree burns or the look of a kitchen ceiling after a mother's cry for help after burning down the whole kitchen trying to put a meal in front of her children, with an empty bottle of whiskey in her left hand. If this is how it needs to be so that you can cope, you can burn my insides like you're trying to get the attention of a rescue helicopter, but don't think for a second you can use me to warm up your hands while we wait, don't you dare. You can treat me like a war zone but you will not shed a single tear over any bloodshed pouring through my territory. None of this should've happened. The only tone you'd ever taught your voice was to let your tongue hit the back of your teeth the same way rain hits the inner workings of a chestnut piano, you set it in a storm and 'rhythm' loses its meaning. You've been taking piano lessons since you were six, your voice shouldn't sound this way. Maybe if I had learned to let go the correct way, If I knew there was a correct way. Either you let go of something and watch it hit the pavement and try to keep the feeling away from your heart, or you let it slip right from your fingers which doesn't work out well when your fingertips are made of matches and your veins are storing gasoline.