When you realize your life long best friend whose home you live in is fine walking out the door and never seeing you again.

When all your ideas are beautiful orchids, and those you reveal them to are dogs looking for relief.

When I look to you for something you don't know how to give.

When I wait three extremely long days for you to keep your promise.

When I still cry, and feel crushed, and wish I didn't exist here even though I am happy.

When I am a million things to a few people who do nothing for me.

When I don't see any of my family for months...and they make no attempts.

When I am tempted to let the months creep into years.

When I realize my boss is an idiot and possible ******.

When I trade them substance for substance calling them friend, but our relationships lack substance.

When everyone just wants what is in it for them, and I just want to give it to them to feel their happiness.

When I feel so alone I could explode.

When I doubt that I am okay.