i've liked guys before, and i've thought that i was in love, but with you it's different. when i hear your name my stomach clenches so painfully, it needs a few minutes to recover. and sometimes i catch myself thinking of you, and how you seem to have the prettiest eyes i've ever seen. like i've always thought that green eyes were gorgeous, but yours are blue and god ****** they are ******* beautiful. i could stare at them all day. then there those times when i watch a movie and someone says something funny, i would think of how you'd laugh at it. you know, those laughs where you squeeze yours eyes shut tight, and open your mouth wide. those real, deep-bellied laughs that make me smile so ******* wide it hurts. sometimes during sad parts when the boy leaves the girl crying, i'd think of you holding me, allowing me to feel the warmth radiating off you. i hate you for this, i really do. i don't want to feel pathetic for pining over someone who will never love me, but no matter what i do, you always manage to creep right back up to the front of my mind. i wish love was easy, and i wish you loved me too. but i think thats what makes love so special. it teaches you to grow, and become a better person. it'll make you so ******* happy, and mind-numbingly sad, but then the other people you love will help to make it better. love is in everyone, and everything. and to me, you are my everyone and everything.