i don't want to pretend
everything's not spinning
because i'm dizzy
or is the room
just not where i want it to be?
maybe i'll build an hourglass
with my hands
and watch it shatter
maybe i'll pick up the lost time
and let it pierce my skin
because i don't want to pretend
that i'm not bleeding
i don't want to pretend
that my veins aren't running pale
i won't