I dream even when I'm awake
My eyes play tricks on me and I see you in the dark
Your hands cast sickly shadows against my skin
Where I hate to feel you again.
Your body is cold because you don't exist
I made you up inside my head
Three years caught in a waking dream
Three years spent means nothing
My loss your gain
My heart tells me that you did exist
It reminds me everyday but then,
This is where I hate to feel you again.
I have memories of you that seem untrue
You used to smile and hold me, tell me I'm okay!
Whose dream was that?
When I turn the light on please disappear
You never do, because you are real
The nausea in my stomach
The pain in my head
The lump in my throat
The ache that radiates in my chest
This is where I hate to feel you again.