now and then I wish if I'm dead
now and then I wish if I'm not even born
now and then I wish if can leave
now and then I wish if I can stop everything and change it
now and then I wish if I'm alone
but after all this I have to thank God for this gift that I'm alive
all I can do is to pray and ask God to make my life better
because I'm sad , I'm misunderstood , I'm ignored , I'm confused
I'm not living I'm just surviving !