I lied.
I do care that we never even held hands
I do care that I can’t ever tell my parents about you
I do care that you would wreck my life.
But I lied.
I do care for you.
I lied to you.
We broke up on facebook.
I lied when I agreed that it was going nowhere.
I lied to you.
I didn’t always drink.
I started after I told you so I wouldn’t lie.
Now when I take a swig of my whiskey, it hurts
It burns
But not as much as it did when I lied.
When I lie.
When I inhale the fumes
Of my cigarette
The smoke invades and kills my lungs
Like my emotions did to my heart
When I lied.
I do care that you are destructive to me.
You have already destroyed me
And we dated for only one afternoon.
I still care for you.
But I will play out my indifference.
I have lied to you.
I will lie to you.