I stand before the mirror and look at my self. He seems no different from me. But within the reflection, not deeply therein, Lies something I don't want to see. I've tried to conceal it, but it can't be contained, Or hidden behind a false smile. No matter the effort and masks I've applied, The sinner shines through all the while. I've tried persuading, I have tried forcing, And I've tried ignoring him out. My self has evaded my every attempt, Ahead one step every route...but one.
All of this time I've been fighting alone When You have been here by my side. Though I've been battling my self for so long, Without You, the victory is not mine. I ask You now, Lord, take my self away, And help me to be more like You. I cry out, oh Lord, take my self away, Until there is only You.
This was written years ago, not only in my repentance, but in reflection on the circumstance that led me to first believe.