Sometimes I feel like drinking all my problems away
Cutting so they bleed away
Blowing them away with the smoke
Killing myself, leaving a note
Sleeping for hours just to pretend they're not there
And when I'm in a normal state
I can't even cry
I don't even know why
I try
I want to let it out
but it's all stuck inside me
so the only way to forget these demons
Is by doing all the bad things
With a big smile
and beating heart
I make it through
Thinking only the good
Just like I should