Apr 2014
I don’t know just where to go from here
I am lost without you here by me,
And everything I would give to see your face again…
I am lost inside my own dark mind,
‘Cause I never once could defend myself
Against the memories that scream they’re still alive:
The way I lied to myself about how things would change,
How I’d never be the man I used to be.
But, I let you lie, and told myself again that it was fine.
All the words I've said to you
Were drown out by your hate for me.
I’m the one who hid the truth, and lied about your lies.
I don’t care what you believe.
Believe it.
I don’t care what thoughts collide inside your hollow mind.
I don’t care what you say.
So, say it.
I know every single lie you never tried to hide.
Now, I feel so hollow inside,
For you've forsaken all I am.
You’re the one who left me alone
Before I ever left you, alone.
I am lost without you here by me,
And everything I would give to see your face again…
I am lost inside my own dark mind,
‘Cause I never once could defend myself
Against the memories that scream they’re still alive:
The way I lied to myself about how things would change,
How I’d never be the man I used to be.
But, I let you lie, and told myself again that it was fine.
All the words I've said to you
Were drown out by your hate for me.
I’m the one who hid the truth, and lied about your lies.
I don’t care what you believe.
Believe it.
I don’t care what thoughts collide inside your hollow mind.
I don’t care what you say.
So, say it.
I know every single lie you never tried to hide.
Now, I feel so hollow inside,
For you've forsaken all I am.
You’re the one who left me alone
Before I ever left you, alone.
Another poem I have been sitting on for quite a long time, thinking there was more to be said. Sometimes, we find we've said all there is to say. The process and time it took me to fully traverse the thought process related here in actuality was much longer a time frame than the poem can suggest, and it was written from the same circumstance and frame of mind from which my poem "Neverafter" was written.
