I discover something lovely and rush to try and make it a part of me, claiming suddenly I'm lovely as I could be - if only I could make it my own. I'll take it, and I'll break it, and I'll make it into one of the songs I sing 'bout just how lovely it all would be - if only I wasn't alone.
I wish to be something I see, So I take it all and make it all the song I sing. Until I'm free to be me, I'll fake it in the songs that I sing.
Oh, way back when all the things that could've been were all the things I couldn't see in me, in me. waiting on the time when I'm ready to cut ties with all the things that shouldn't be for me, for me. I'll keep pretending for so long it won't be just another song when I'm free. When I'm free to be me.
So I spend a lot of time reading books. Lovely books about better days. 'bout how to live in these 'better ways' - If only i could make them my own. So I take 'em, and I brake 'em, and I make 'em into one of these songs I sing 'bout how much better my life would be if only, when I'm finally grown.
Repeating word for word, regardless if I'm feeling fine I take it all and fake it for a price.
Line after line, not every song I sing is mine but I can't help but think - Oh, wouldn't it be nice?
I wish to be something i see so I take it all and make it all that song that I sing. Until I'm free to be me I'll fake it in the songs that I sing.
It won't be just another song when I'm finally free to be me.
this is supposed to be a song. but really it has no order. just a bunch of crumbled up idea. hm. ok.