God this is going be so bad but I can't even bring myself to care because nothing is going right. That feeling when everything is drifting away and you're left to stay afloat in the middle of the ocean (does this sound cliche) ? How many typical poetic sentences and metaphors do I have to use before someone understands how I feel ? To describe how it is to feel lonely like a star in the sky - so alike the others and so close, yet so different and so alone. To be  dependent of yourself and only yourself, because you are a panther in the jungle and you can trust no one or else they make too much noise. Like a panther, you are walking carefully on the tree trunks that have fallen under the wrath of Mother Nature, but the others, the elephants, they are stomping recklessly, diving headfirst in situations they cannot get themselves out of. You are a lone panther, drifting slowly and swiftly and barely alive through the jungle, like you are in life. But comparing myself to a panther, is that accurate ? They are brave and mysterious and dark : I am vulnerable, fearful and transparent. I am nothing I am in between and I am *everything