i can’t believe i’d forgotten how you would talk to me until two, sometimes three in the morning, nonstop messages fingers taking flight over the keys, telling me stories, sometimes just listening, incessantly exposing yourself in uncompromised open wounds.
now, it’s not quite the way it was now, i tell myself this doesn’t mean anything. that we shift & settle like dust upon past incarnations of us, but i miss what you gave me early in the morning, filling the space within my chest that is often empty, giving me truths & performing absolutions for all my past sins.
the truth is, i am no longer the shiny new toy you are desperate to play with every second of every day i am the book at your bedside, measuring my days by when you turn my pages & when you don’t wanting you to devour me whole once again.