Knowing Christ is not about avoiding hell or being blessed.
But its about becoming a better person an more Spiritual being.
Its about learning to love others and learning to love yourself.
Yes this journey that we all are on is a hard one but Christ will help.
Its about loving Christ more then yourself, and loving others.
That is what being a true christian is all about fellow-shipping.
Blessing others with your gifts, and talents and with yourself.
This is by far what being a true christian is all about here.
If you fail to love and help others then you fail in becoming a true christian.
By the way God will work on you learning to love yourself.
Not the selfish way but the way that Christ created us to love ourselves.