why am i so lonely

is it because i spent so much time chasing perfection, your ideal, my demons, instead of boys?
is it because i puked out my insides instead of letting you touch them
and bled out my emotions instead of centring them on you

maybe if i'd looked a little further
                     screamed a little louder
                     loved a little harder
i'd be better

enough for you,, enough for anyone*

//ale a